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So... I made a YouTube video?

I think you all should DEFINITELY GO LOOK AT IT and COMMENT and SUBSCRIBE because I'm REALLY LONELY OVER THERE. I want to become a YouTube personality, and I can't if I don't have anyone paying attention to me! *shamelessplug*

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30 day meme that really shouldn't take 30 days so I'm doing it in one! Hoo-ah!

Day 01 - Your favourite song
oh god I have WAY too many. It is literally impossible for me to say which is my favourite right now, because I'm going through my iPod and rediscovering songs I love but haven't listened to in a while. I suppose that RIGHT NOW, it'd be either "Love Love Love" by The Mountain Goats, or Mozart's Concerto No. 23 for Piano and Orchestra.

Day 02 - Your least favourite song
"I Kissed  A Girl", by Katy Perry. God, FUCK that song.
Heh, I love that it took me SO LONG to figure out my favourite song for Day 1, but this was immediate and totally accurate.

Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
"Take Me Home Country Roads", by John Denver. It's awesome and just... agh. It sounds like sunshine on a dirt road.

Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
"February Song", by Josh Groban. ):

Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
"Gravity", by Sara Bareilles. Reminds me of an old flame.

Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
I'm not sure... SomeWHERE? Hmm. Oh, I know! James Galway's version of the theme from "Braveheart". It reminds me of being in Bannockburn, Scotland, near the statues of Robert the Bruce and William Wallace, with the hills rolling greenly in the distance and the sound of bagpipes. Eeee.

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
"You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night)" by Meat Loaf. Reminds me of the first time I hung out with a guy who would become my boyfriend and later one of my closest friends. =)

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
I know all the words to SO MANY SONGS, I cannot pick just one. But right now, I suppose we can go with "Holiday Clusterfuck", by Doug Walker. Because I can.

Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
"Dragostea Din Tea", by O-Zone. That's right. The Numa Numa Song. It comes on my iPod and I *have* to dance to it. It is a REQUIREMENT.

Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
"Never Forget", from the Halo 3 soundtrack. Shut up, it's relaxing.

Day 11 - A song from your favourite band
I honestly don't have a favourite band.

Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
"Empire State of Mind", by Jay-Z and Alicia Keys. I dislike rap in general, but I love this song.

Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
*sigh* ... "Just So You Know", by Jesse McCartney. I KNOW, I KNOW, but I really like the song, okay?

Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
"Bad Romance" by Lady Gaga. I mean, with the amount i bitch about this song? Yeah, nobody suspects that I secretly ADORE it. And her.

Day 15 - A song that describes you
Oh god. Ummm. Well, if I want to be totally ridiculous, I could say "Nostalgia Critic Anthem" by Benzaie (one of the lines is "I love Doug Walker, it's true", I mean come on now), but I kind of want to be serious about this. Uhh...
OH! I KNOW! "Confrontation", from Jekyll and Hyde. It is totally awesome, and so much like me it makes me kind of want to kill myself.

Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
I don't know. I don't *hate* that many songs. And the ones I do, I remove from my life.

Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
I don't really listen to the radio that often, so...

Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio

Day 19 - A song from your favourite album
My favourite full album? That'd be The High Kings, from The High Kings (obviously). My favourite song off of it... man, I love all of them. Probably either "The Rocky Road to Dublin" or "Galway to Graceland".

Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Depends on what kind of angry it is. I have a whole list, really. "Requiem For A Dream", "Bitch/Slut/Liar/Whore", "Alive"...

Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
If I'm not happy when I listen to "It's Okay To Be Gay", by Tomboy, then I sure as hell am once it's over. =)

Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Metric's cover of "Between the Bars", by Elliott Smith. It makes me feel so much better.

Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Right now, all I can think is "Strange Animal" by Gowan. But that's probably because I'm listening to it now and I would love to dance to that with my future wife.

Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
"Alexandra Leaving", by Leonard Cohen. If you haven't heard it, go listen. It is bloody perfect.

Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
"Living In The Sunlight, Loving In The Moonlight", by Tiny Tim. I admit, some of that is nervous laughter, but hey who cares.

Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
I can play lots of songs. "The Last Rose of Summer" is my favourite.

Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Everything I can't play.

Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
I don't really have any songs like that. Well, maybe "I'll Be (Your Crying Shoulder)", by Edwin McCain. Sarah and I danced to it at prom, and every time I hear it I feel like I don't treat her as well as she deserves.

Day 29 - A song from your childhood
"Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now", by The Smiths. Yeah, I had a weird, eclectic childhood.

Day 30 - Your favourite song at this time last year
Probably "Bat Out Of Hell", by Meat Loaf.
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Writer's Block: Bone appetit!

If your pet were arranging a dinner party, who do you think they would invite and what would they serve?

I'm assuming this has no basis in reality, being that my cat cannot arrange a dinner party. But, if Bearcat were to arrange a dinner party he'd probably invite people like Oscar Wilde. He'd want to surround himself with people just as languid and "bitch, please" as he is. And of course he'd serve fish. Salmon, probably. It's his favourite.
Yes, I know what my cat's favourite food is. WHAT OF IT.
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    Don't Let Go -- Bryan Adams feat. Sarah McLachlan
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a note on PTSD

I've been debating about whether or not to write this and actually put it up somewhere, and I'm still not sure if I'll post it. If you're reading this, then I guess I decided to post it after all. Basically, what I want to do is... well, let me just dive right in.

I have PTSD. Posttraumatic Stress Disorder. Most people know it as "shell shock", and it's that disorder that people get after returning from Vietnam. Now, of course mine isn't of that same severity. I was never in any war, I was never brutally raped and beaten by a gang, but what DID happen to me was five months of emotional, sexual, and physical abuse when I was fourteen years old. I will not go into details here, mostly because I want to remain calm while I write this, but suffice it to say... it was hell. It was hell then and it's hell now. That's not what this entry is about, though. This entry is about the disorder that arose from it, the problems it causes me, the symptoms I show, and how they affect me. This entry is an explanation of my disorder, and a few of the frustrations it's causing me.

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Um... whoops.

So it looks like I’m going to have to cut back on my Critic intake, as I apparently used up almost all of the internet this month. I can’t watch him at home until May, and even then I need to scale back my viewing (like, one hour per night instead of my usual FIVE). Because you see, the thing about our internet is that actual surfing isn’t too bad, but the transfer of bytes and downloading and stuff like that takes up the select amount of time that we pay for. Apparently, streaming video takes up a bunch. And, well, I watch five hours of an online show every night. We are now at 85% capacity for the month.


BUT! I think I can do this. I can get my fix at lunchtime at school, and I can listen to Holiday Clusterfuck all the time and I can look at the Wikipedia page if I *really* need to see his face. WHICH I WON’T, BECAUSE I CAN DO THIS. And this actually isn’t too bad, really. I mean, yeah, it sucks that I have to cut back, but it’ll probably be good for me. That and it will finally get people off my back about how I’m dangerously obsessed. If I can do this, I can prove that I’m not that obsessed after all. It’s a blessing in disguise. And even if I don’t watch him for a while, that’ll just make it that much better when I can finally watch him again, because the jokes will have faded from my memory slightly so they’ll be almost new! Hurray!

This won't be too bad. I can do this. I can. Yeah. Sure.


help me.

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just one of those moments

Every so often I start to miss Sarah more than anything. Usually it's in the middle of the night; two or three in the morning. Like now. I don't know what it is about this time of night -- maybe it's the isolation, maybe it's the darkness, I don't know -- but for some reason every time I'm awake at this time, I start thinking about Sarah and how much I want to be near her.

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things my girlfriend says when she's on painkillers

Her: "I feel like a dinosaur! RAWR!!!"
Me: "Oh my good god this will be fun. Can I look forward to this all night?"
Her: "Surgery was good, my painkillers make me feel odd. Dinokitties as pirate-ninjas! Can you imagine how awesome that would be?! I think so, hope you don't mind. I'm looking forward to seeing you. <3"
Me: "Are you coming to the school tomorrow, then? You insane person, you."
Her: "Just to pick you up. You can still come over right? Jello... jello is a funny word. JELLOOOO!"
Me: "Yes, I can still come over. And jello is just weird in general. It wobbles!"
Her: "Cherry and lime jello. Jello later with the dinosaur movies? Zombie dinosaurs! Dinosaur jello!"
Me: "Jello and dinosaurs sound like the best plan ever. But I don't think dinosaur jello would taste very good."
Her: "It would be strawberry flavoured for herbivores, raspberry for omnivores, and watermelon flavoured for carnivores! =) It would be delicious."

Good god I love this girl. Remind me to marry her.
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